|Whimbrel at 2 Mile Landing. 9x12 acrylic painting. Copyright 2020 by Ken Januski
I have had a number of "successes" and a number of "failures" in my artistic career. I put quotes around the terms to indicate that there is a bit of artificiality in them. For instance I have been in a number of competitive art shows in my career and I have been rejected from quite a few as well. I have gotten some likes on Facebook, a very low standard of appreciation I know, and I think a much greater number of non-responses. I have sold some work, often looking quite different from one another, but I haven't sold anywhere near as much work as I'd like.
Sometimes these are more meaningful to me than others, for instance I'm always quite happy to have my work accepted into the annual exhibit of The Society of Wildlife Artists because I think so much of the work that I'm showing with. I've been excited to get into some competitive shows when I was an abstract artist often to find that I wasn't at all happy with the work that hung beside mine. But I also realized early on that competitive shows are often the end result of competing tastes on the part of judges or other 'stakeholders' and that the show reflects it. Often they are odd hodgepodges. Again I think that this is not the case with 'The Natural Eye,' and that's why I'm always happy to be in it. I used to be somewhat depressed not to get into another competitive show that I applied to frequently. But I always got the catalog of the show. And finally, after quite a few years, I finally said to myself: "This is silly. I don't LIKE most of the art in the show." And a year or two after that I stopped submitting work.
My end of submissions isn't necessarily a critique of the show but it is an understanding of myself by myself. I'm far better off creating art that I like and only trying to exhibit it at shows I'd be happy to be in. What's the point of trying to get into a show, even a prestigious one, if you don't like most of the art in it? In the same vein what's the point of trying to gain entry to various galleries or associations if you don't appreciate the work of most of the other artists involved?
To make a long story short at some point I decided I really have to make sure I'm the judge who counts most. What do I think of my work?!
And that leads me to my most recent painting at top. I like it!
I have been reading Tolstoy's Anna Karenina over the last month or so. In it there is an artist, Mikhailov. I'm not really sure of why he's there but what struck me is a section where he expects very little from the people who come to look at his paintings, then begins to think much more of them when they say something that might possibly be interpreted as positive. Tolstoy I think is criticizing him but I think the scene might also ring true for many artists. As soon as someone says they like your work, or purchases it, you tend to see them and your work in a slightly better light.
I'm reminded of that by the watercolor painting I did of two Whimbel pictured below.
|Two Whimbrel at 2 Mile Landing. 12x16 watercolor. Copyright 2020 by Ken Januski
It is one of a number of paintings and drawings I did on the way to the painting at top. It is a bit more realistic. It's also true that I've sold a number of my watercolor paintings. I'm happy with the watercolor paintings and I'm happy that someone likes them well enough to buy them. But I realize that I might disappoint some of those buyers because I don't too often put those paintings up for sale. That's not because I'm too fond of them. It's because I don't do that many any more and I'm often not happy when I do most. But when I put them up for sale it's because I do like them.
|Whimbrel at 2 Mile Landing. 11x14 inch sumi brush pen and crayon drawing. Copyright 2020 by Ken Januski
I realize that not all artists can worry about What They Want. They have to worry about what their customers will buy so that they can pay the bills, etc., etc. I've seen no sign in my life that it's easy for an artist to make a living as an artist. Throughout history many of the most successful artists in any medium have had to keep their customers/patrons happy. I can't criticize that and I don't. What I'm saying is really more personal. I do know when I've done something that I'm happy with, regardless of what others think. That is my idea of artistic success.
|Whimbrel Studies. Sumi Brush Pen. Copyright 2019 by Ken Januski
Just to round off these thoughts the drawings above are done with sumi brush pen and are all based on photos that I took. I like them in many ways but I'll probably never really like work that I do that is based solely on photos.
|Whimbrel at 2 Mile Landing. Sumi brush pen field sketch. Copyright 2019 by Ken Januski.